Saturday, July 11, 2009

Yes I have come this far...

So its been a long time since I wrote about my life. Everything is kinda normal at the moment. I'm on break from school until the end of August. I start my student teaching and wow am I scared. This is like the final step wait this is the final step. I never thought I would get to this point. 16 weeks will make or break me and it all depends on a group of Kindergartens, one teacher, and one professor. I know teaching is what I want to do with my life I love being in the classroom and around the kids. I know everything will go fine I'm just nervous but I guess everyone is. Life will go on, I will pass and I will become a teacher. And after that its vacation 2 weeks of vacation away from everything. I think my vacation will give me that extra push to succeed and get through my student teaching with flying colors. I will not be defeated and I will enjoy every bit of time in the classroom.
I have decided tonight that I will not let IBS control my life I will control it. If you don't know what IBS is it stands for Irritable Bowel Syndrome which is a big word for my stomach hates me and doesn't want me to eat and if I do it makes sick and I have to become friends with the bathroom. I've been dealing with IBS since I was 17 so its been almost 9 years. It hasn't gottin any better it just has become a part of my life and the people who love me. I need to do something because just dealing with it isn't working for me anymore. I know its annoyies people in my life even if its just because they worry about me and want to help me. So Monday morning i'm calling my insurance to see what can be done about it and if I need a referral or not to see a stomach specialist. I hoping for some drugs and different ways of coping with it. One major thing that comes with IBS is stress makes it so much worse. I don't deal with stress well and with student teaching starting in a month and a half I need to get this under control. Oh well I'm off to bed I'm going to the zoo tomorrow with my hubby and dad. This should be a good day spent with two of my favorite men in the world.

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